BFN

It finally arrived. The dreaded period. I am feeling defeated and heartbroken. Trying to see the silver lining but it's getting so hard. It's easier to deal with it while holding hubby's hand and crying everything out. 

I am afraid of being bitter. Looking at other people's happiness with frown and wondering what's wrong with me. I'm sure in time I will heal and ready for the next cycle (in two days) but right now please excuse my whining. It is, after all, our space to pour our hearts out (in this case, mine). 

My birthday is in less than two weeks. I thought this would be the best gift ever. But apparently not now, God says. I don't feel like inviting anyone to dinner, though. We're thinking of going to a nice laid back dinner just the two of us. It's time for vacation, time for a break. Hopefully it will also help in the next cycle.